a good friend of mine's dad was given 2 weeks to live.
he had had diabetes and throat cancer, and the last time I had seen him, was a few months ago, and he had just lost his voice because of laryngitis.

he lasted 2 days.

life's too short.

RIP.

MSU...u can suck my left nut... fucking bomb threat.

people are just dumb.

dave and i are over. broke up about 4 weeks ago now.

going to montclair. got housing in the hotel. gona be a constant party. lol.

camp has been amazing. i love it tons. i love my Co and everyone i work with, and even the girls, although they can be a pain..but then again..so can i. lol.

So.. as a joke Dave and i started talking about our "wedding".. then he decided to set a date.. may 11..the day after his birthday...in 3 years... i want a late September.. and his mom agreed with me.

i think my decision has been made that I'm gonna end up going to Montclair. not really sure yet. Dave's not happy about it though. and i really don't want him going back up to Hartford to live with Adam. i don't want him near that kid after what they did to me and are still doing. but work starts this Thursday.. and at some point, i gotta get back up to Hartford to get all my stuff thats in storage.

alright..need to go shower and stuff...going to Dave's..then to his neighbors graduation party.. later..
<3

I didn't realize how immature 23 year olds could be.
and how little can be done about harassment.
People amaze me sometimes.

So I love how state police pull over the people that are trying to get away from the asshole drivers. lol.
Dave and i were on our way back up to school for finals... first we got to Booton, and had to turn around because he forgot the paint to paint their apartment with. Then as we were heading back to school for the second time, we were passing Booton again, and he realized he forgot his phone charger, but didn't care that much. So right after that, some woman drives by us really fast. She's in the middle lane, and we're in the left lane. A few minutes later, Dave speeds up, and drives past the woman, and she flipped us off...for no reason at all. So Dave was in front of her, and she was on our tail, and every time we tried to switch lanes, she would follow us, so Dave stuck his middle finger out of the sun roof. Well, 10 seconds later, there's a cop on our ass, lights flashing, and we're being pulled over. First thing the state trooper said was "do you normally stick your middle finger out the window?", and our response, "the lady did it to us, and we were trying to get away from her".
End of the story... we got away with a Warning of Careless Driving.

I love stupid drivers on the road...So what should have taken us 2.5 hours to get to school....took us a total of 4 hours. lol.

Now, I'm just sitting in my bed, watching Charmed. I should be studying for my final thats tomorrow night, but I really don't care about it.

Mommy and I got 11th row seats to see Meatloaf on July 29! SOOOOOO excited!!!

tonight is gonna be a hard night to sleep cuz Dave is at his place pulling an all niter...and i can already tell that I'm gonna be doing alotta yelling at Nadia and Deandra and Ashley for being too loud..not looking forward to that. Can't wait for the weekend home and away from them. It'll be soo nice to have the peace and quiet for once.

So far, I have two As, and an A- as final grades.. prob gona have 2 Cs, and at least a B+, A-, if not an A in AUCA. So I'm kind of happy. minus politics and child psyc... my grades are good. but thats what i get for not caring about those classes.

gona go. time to watch tv, and decide when i'm going to sleep... nightnight<3

so Anya and her bf came up for Spring Fling..deffinatly a drunken shitshow. lol. I totally missed the concert as well..i was too busy getting drunk..then being hungover by 9. lol. but overall, just an amazing weekend...

going home this weekend to help dave get his car back home cuz he doesnt have a cell phone cuz he broke it doing a mud slide this weekend. lol. that and his radiator is messed up.. so i dont want him being alone without a phone. So i'm gona end up bringing a bunch of shit home, which will be good for next week when mommy comes up and we bring everything else home.

still waiting to hear abut the job situation..really hope i get teh job as teh teacher assistant..it'll be amazing if i do.

gona go watch tv and pass out..since dave is already passed out with his arm around me, and its almost impossible to be typing right now. lol.
night
<3

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well..its been an interesting week or so...

Dave and i are getting better...not fighting as much. its kinda awesome. We had such a good night last night, and it was like i fell in love with him all over again.

Adam has been annoying the hell out of us though..We're all getting really sick of him. Like last night, Dave, Tony, Jill, Adam and myself went out bowling, and Adam just started talking to the people next to us, and would say shit like "i cant bowl now, I'm talking." or "I'm drinking"...and it kept screwing up the game. So Dave doesn't know if he's gonna live with him again next year. Tony, Jill and i all agreed that we wont go out with him ever again, unless Liza is there to keep him in line, and even then probably not. We're just really sick of him and his attitude. But then again, I've never really liked it.

Scheduling is tonight at midnight, so far the classes I want aren't completely filled. So i just have to make sure I get online at midnight and get it all done.

My mom just called..said that there was a train accident at home.. Bill Corson was supposivly running towards the train at Millington station, and was dragged under it for 15-20 feet...he's still alive, but I'm all shook up, and just keep crying. I worked under him for a few productions, so I'm just like. whoa right now.

And then, its like all the teachers decided to place all this work on us at the last minute of the semester. I have two papers and a bunch of projects due next week or so. And one of the projects is a group project, and one girl just keeps like expecting us to do the work for her..So i absolutely refuse, and will probably be telling Dr. Day that we're kicking her out...Shes done jack shit, and I cant afford a bad grade because of her. Ugh..And this is why I hate people and group stuff.

Alright, time to go to get back to work, now that I'm a bit calmer about everything thats going on.

Mmm..so I dropped Biology. lol. So next semester I'm taking Chemistry for the consumer instead. But I've heard it's a hell of a lot easier..So thats good.

Finally got the big bed. It's amazing, and really comfy. Dave still squishes me up against the wall, but it's ok, cuz i can just roll him back over and then i have space again. lol.

Getting ready for scheduling and housing for next year..things are getting complicated, but i dno. I think i may be living with Dana and Heidi, and one of Heidi's friends. I dno yet. depends on what happens tomorrow when we go to Res Life to get our housing numbers.

Things with Dave have been really up and down lately. we're working on it, cuz we both agree we want this to work more than anything, but it's just really hard. We're still completely in love...it's just the fighting thats getting really hard. i dno. i think we'll work thru it. We have worked thru it before.

But that's all for now. Just trying to get through the last few weeks of school, find a job for parts of the summer, start the job at the camp, have 3 weeks at the end of summer free, go to Florida to visit family, then spend my birthday at home, and go back to school a few days later. It should be a good summer this year again.

So, didn't get to finish the download of Microsoft Office 2007. It didn't work. but oh well.

Helped out at the Special Olympics on Saturday. It was really fun. I liked it a lot. Those kids are so sweet.

Saturday night, we were at the Diabetics, and they were playing Battle Beers. When one of the balls landed near me, Alex ran into my knee, and now it's all busted..Hurts like hell to walk on, but I'm able to walk on it, so we think I just bruised the knee cap. So I didn't get to go to the Special Olympics on Sunday because I couldn't walk. lol.

Schools been going okay. Biology is kicking my ass right now. I am Definitely about to go and make it a pass/fail class, because I'm not doing so good with it. But everything else is going good.

Davey and I are good. Sleeping next to him is amazing. I'm getting a blow up mattress for the room thats queen size, so we don't keep getting into arguments about the space in the bed. lol. So that'll make things so much better sleeping wise. I can't wait. I'll have a big bed, and my baby by my side :)

So, we still haven't gone to the movies. We went out to dinner to this new restaurant which is like a Dave and Busters. We did the photo-booth thing. It was fun. That weekend I moved into a new apartment too. Now I have a single, and its awesome. Dave and I have a room to ourselves, and it's quite nice. lol. And its big..I feel like I have so much more space here than I did in the double. lol.

This past weekend we went down to Liza's. Dave was able to pick up his computer wire, and I picked up my skis. Then I got to go shopping at the Palisades mall, and got to see Tara and Anthony. It was fun, minus being annoyed with Dave the entire weekend, and nothing made it better..especially since Dave and Adam went bar hopping through the mall while Liza and I were shopping, and they were extremely drunk by 5 pm. That didn't help. But I got a cute new pair of polka dot ballet-flat shoes...pair of jeans, two pairs of dress pants, and shirt and tank from Hollister..underwear from Victoria's secret..and brought back two bottles of champagne :) That made me happy.

But yea, so now its back to school. Waiting to see how much snow we get tonight...Home already has two hour delay in the morning...so I'm just waiting to hear about here now. So time to go lay down, wait for the new 2007 Microsoft office to finish downloading, and pass the fuck out..without my love by my side...I really do hate sleeping without him. but oh well.

So it's Valentines Day..
so far...
Dave's slept, had a fever of 102.3, and slept more.
I've sat in bed on my computer, ate spaghetti-o's, took my meds, and took care of him.
It's been a really entertaining valentines day. lol.

And i still want my present. lol. but its all the way back at his apartment, and he doesn't feel well enough to walk there yet. poo.

Oh well..2 valentines in a row that he's sick...I just have the fucking flu..which i ended up giving to him..and now i think i have an ear infection, so i really still do feel like shit. But i'm trying to make myself better so i can take care of him better than if we were both sick and unable to do anything.

Friday night we're supposed to go to the movies...dunoo which one yet..and Saturday is our one year, so we're going out to dinner to celebrate both the anniversary and valentines day. Can't wait.. two night alone with my baby..It's gona be a good weekend...And, most likely tomorrow, Nadia and I find out if we're moving out, cuz the University was closed today, i think thats why we didnt find anything out today.

OH, and we had a snow day today..even though there was only an inch of snow on the ground. But then again...there was tiny chunks of ice falling for a few hours. lol.

thats all for now. back to feeling like shit and watching too much tv.

I've never felt more like i was in high school
its awesome when you think someones a really good friend of yours, then you hear them talking shit about you right underneath your window.
it's really an awesome feeling.
I'm done with people.
I don't know who anyone really is anymore.